Tis the season for photos!

Just some random photos of my life at the moment... :o)


Krisselle, Ruth-Ellen and Kathryn on our Christmas Picnic! 


Me, Krisselle and Ruth-Ellen at our picnic. 

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!

Did everyone have a good Christmas day? Mine was very quiet compared to other years. Usually we have all the family over and the kids swim in the pool. Seeing we've moved away this year, I went to church (the youth had the service)then i came home had lunch with Nanna, Mum and Dad then opened presents. I got a 4 person tent (woohoo!) and a sewing machine! Then i slept.

It was nice to have a different temperature than what i'm used to with every other Christmas, instead of 40 degree heat we only had in the 20s. Was very nice.

Merry Christmas again everyone

Travels

Today two of my friends are off to Fiji! How lucky are they, their going to have so much fun!

Two other friends are in the US with their families. Some people have all the fun! It doesn't matter, i'm going to the Solomon Islands next year. Did you hear about the Australian Peacekeeper who was shot in Honiara (sp!?) which is the Capital of the Solomons? My parents are not so sure about letting me go now. I hope it doesn't stir things up.

It's amazing how you don't realise how much something or some people mean to you until their gone away. I'm missing lots of my college friends heaps!

Not long until Christmas now!

Chugging along!

Well, been a little while since i posted. I got a postcard from Braden today, from Hawaii. They're having fun - so that's good. I also got a letter from my friend over in Japan, i really want to go over there and visit her. She is such a beautiful person!

Had a Christmas picnic with Ruth-Ellen, Kathryn, and Krisselle today. Was good fun, lots of laughs as per usual! I'm starting to dog-sit now for a week or so. Next door has gone away and i'm looking after the two little dogs, their so cute! The last of Cleo's puppys went to its new home today, poor Cleo ran to the gate and cried.

I'll post some pictures of the Oliver's puppies when we took them to the beach before they went overseas. There are in all 11 of them, and as you'll see, they are so increadibly adoreable!

One of the puppies 


More puppies! 


Oh, and check out the little blogger-pet and the bottom right.

More engagged?!

Another of my school friends is engagged and will be married in April next year! I can't believe it! o.O

That's now 3 friends my age who are getting married at the age of 20!!!!!!!

Rant continued...

Ok, well now that I’m finished my assignment I can finally do some serious writing (haha, yer right!) As I said in the last post, I’m having relationship issues at the moment. Now, before I say too much, I don’t want anyone to read to deeply into this and some of you may have some idea of whom I’m talking about.
How do you tell when your feelings for someone are more than just friendship feelings? Can you have a mixture of both feelings? Sometimes feel those nervous-excited feelings and other times simply feel 100% relaxed around them? It’s really frustrating sometimes. Sometimes I crave a relationship, wanting someone special to share my life with, other times I’m happy just being single having my good friends.
I know God has it all in control, and that I don’t need to worry, and that I’m still only young and needn’t worry about all this sort of stuff, but it does get to me sometimes.
Over the last year and even more so the last 6 months, my attitude towards relationships has changed. Before, I wasn’t going to play the “wife role” but now I’ll be happy to play more of a ‘wifey’ tole. I think this reflects somewhat I’ve learnt from watching my family. I don’t think that any child should grow up with both parents working. I realise others may have different views on this topic, but that is were I stand.
This year a lot of my friends have gotten engaged and are soon to be married. I’m entering into the age where most of my friends will start to get engaged and married, and this is a huge wake up call. Now, I’m not saying that I want to get married or engaged, and I don’t’ feel that I’m getting “left behind”, but I just want to find my special person that I can share my life with. I guess that’s one thing that I’m scared of, growing old alone.
But I’m sick of the whole dating game, the next person that I date; I want to be serious about. I’m not saying that they’ll necessarily be the one that I’m going to marry, or that within one week of dating that I’ll be mentioning marriage. But I just don’t want to be dating for the sake of dating.
I have a friend who has a lot of the qualities that I want in my future husband and I really respect those qualities. You know how when you were younger you made a list of all the qualities that you want your future partner to have, well, how much do you stick to that list? Is it possible to get someone with all the qualities you like? Or do you just settle for the ‘best-fit’?
And, how long do you hold onto a hope? Say, you kind of liked someone, but you were entirely sure how they felt about you, do you just get over it and move on, or do you hold onto a hope? If so, do you just try your luck that they might say or do something to let you know how they feel about you, or do you speak up and risk the friendship by telling them how you feel?
Why are relationships so complicated?!

Arghs!!!!

Ok, i'm having issues at the moment! Relationship issues to be more precise!

Let you be warned tommorow will come the flow of emotions on to the screen...

Ice cream and hot dogs

Well college is out and just about everyone has gone home and those who live here are starting to go away... so there's very few left now. I know i haven't posted anything for ages, but i just haven't been able to find any motivation - my life story. I've been a bit moody of late, i think it's because everyone is away and i'm still goin uni and when everyone leaves Cooranbong there aint much to do at all! Plus, the parents are still working so i'm getting "bored-at-home-alone" syndrome. Only so much that you can watch on only two fuzzy television stations.

Are you familiar with any Anastasia songs? Now, just wait before you go and laugh. If you listen to some of her lyrics, their really good! And they just seem to suit my moods at the moment. Particularly her songs Welcome to my Truth

Sentimental days
In a misty clouded haze
Of a memory that now feels untrue
I used to feel disguised
Now I leave the mask behind
Painting pictures that aren't so blue
The pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned

Chorus:
Somebody bring up the lights I want you to see
(Don't You Feel Sorry For Me)
My life turned around
But I'm still living my dreams
(Yes it's true I've been)
I've been through it all
I´ve hit about a million walls
Welcome to my truth.. I still love
Welcome to my truth.. I still love

Tangled in a web
With a pain hard to forget
That was a time that I've now put to rest
Oh, the pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned

Even her song "Sexy Single" is basically saying that it is perfectly fine to be single (just tried to find a link to it, you have no idea how hard it is...) also "Rearview" i really like.

Anyway, it's 11.19pm at night and i'm tired so if i start rambling, just deal with it! :o) Why does these songs suit my moods? I really am not sure, their about love and relationship.

I really like "I´ve hit about a million walls, Welcome to my truth.. I still love.." from welcome to my truth, cause i can deffinately say i've hit millions of walls and have learnt to get up and keep on living, i think we can all identify with that one. I see relationships everywhere around me, and it's funny how an "outsider" can see whether it will work, why or why not, what the problems are but when it's you you can't seem to tell. If i can find lyrics for both those other two songs i'll just paste them here.

Rearview:

Ohhh.. Ohh..

I use to tell myself that you would wait
I borrowed time for two and I twisted fate
I left us floating in the air for the wind to hold on to
It let me down it let you go

I drive around like everything's okay
And I feel the lightening in our own mistakes
And I was gonna tell you
I wish all our wrongs could be right
I'm too late
I looked in my rearview
And now I don't see you

Sometimes the things you want are hard to take
Sometimes the ones you love are risks you don't make, yeah
The dust has settled into nothingness
and I yearn for yesterday
Just look around
I'm still the same

I drive around like everything's okay
like everything's okay
And I feel the lightening in our own mistakes
and I was gonna tell you
I wish all our wrongs could be right
I'm too late
I looked in my rearview
And now I don't see you

So many things that we didn't say
So many reasons the world's not the same
Oh, it's not the same

I drive around like nothing here has changed
But I know the sky has one more cloud to break
And I was gonna tell you
I wish all our wrongs could be right
I'm too late
I looked in my rearview
And now I don't see you

I said I
I drive and everything has changed
ohh..
and I feel the lightening it's in my own mistakes
and I was gonna tell you
I wish all our wrongs could be right
I'm too late
I looked in my rearview
and now I don't see you

I used to tell myself
that you
would wait

Sexy Single:

All my life I've tried to find
A love to give me piece of mind
And I, I looked into your eyes
Captivated by your wicked smile
I was mesmerized there
for a while or two
But what's a girl gonna do?

Oh I lay in my bed
with your stupid face in my head
Just another piece in my life
Now I'm a sexy single
Sexy single that's OK
I'm living on my own
And I'm feeling the way I do
Like a sexy single
Sexy single

Birds of a feather
We flock together
Like leaves on a tree
We were meant to be in love
I guess it was just a dream

Oh I lay in my bed
with your stupid face in my head
Just another piece in my life
Sexy single
Sexy single that's OK
I'm living on my own in my special way
Like a sexy single
Sexy single
I'm sexy single
Sexy single
Sexy single

I said I'm living on my own
And feeling the way I do
When I'm not with you

I said I'm sexy single
That's OK
Living on my own
And feeling the way I do
I said when I'm not with you

Sexy single that's OK
I'm living on my own in my special way
Like a sexy single
Sexy single

Well there you go, make what you want of those lyrics but they connect with me. Maybe to be continued one day... maybe not too.. :o)